Dear Natalaie,

My heart goes out to you. Having lost my own beautiful mum 3 months ago, I'm very much with you in this agony. I cannot imagine how hard it must be to have lost your dad as well. I have found it utterly excruciating, and also never felt pain like it. Please, if you can, be the kindest and gentlest with yourself that you have ever been. We aren't ourselves at this time and just need to do whatever we need to do to get through each hour. Do you have access to any support like cruse or talking therapy (through your gp)? I have found that has helped me when I have been very bad. In moments where I felt my worst I called Samaritans, just to speak to someone outside of it all. That helped too. All I can say is that you are not alone, and I have found that though it is still so painful, it is not as horrendous as it was one month ago. 
 

thinking of you x