Hi all, I wanted to post again to let you know how it is for me 8 months after I lost the bravest woman I have ever known. My beautiful mum passed away last May 2019 . I can say at first for a few months I kind off waded through the days. I was angry, scared and heart broken . I couldn't think of my mum without thinking about the cancer and how it took her before it killed her. I spent a lot of time trying to erase the memories. I then began to focus on how much she loved me and I realised that this did not disappear, infact my mum will always love me , wether she is here or not . This thought has been my comfort . I'm not going to say it's been easy and that there is not a day goes by when I don't think of my mum and wish I could spend just one more half hour with her. But you do learn to adjust and days get easier , there are still times when it hits you and knocks you sideways but you learn to focus on the memories . I like to think of my mum as only ever a thought away. It's still early days for me but I know my mum would want me to be happy and make the most of life x big hugs to all who are touched by this horrible illness x it may have taken your loved one but it can't take the love you shared because that lasts forever xx