I lost my mum on the 20th December 19 and I miss her so much. My mum was diagnosed with Oesophagus cancer in September last year and following this diagnosis had 2 rounds of chemo. In late November my mum was unable to go through with her third round of chemo as she had very bad vomiting and so had lost a lot of weight and was unable to keep any food down. My mum had a stent put in her oesophagus in October but a second stent was put in on the 16th December as the first stent had moved and was no longer working. Something went drastically wrong with this second stent, my mum was taken to hospital by ambulance on the 18th December as she was vomiting blood. Over the next two days my mum was given blood transfusions and fluids and we all thought my mum was on the mend. I was visiting my mum in hospital on the 20th December and I went to the bathroom when I came back all hell had broke loose and a resus team had been called. My mum passed away and the doctors advised that they thought a blood clot had caused this.  I still can't get over the shock of it all. Everybody thought my mum was doing okay. I don't know if my mum had any idea of what was happening? 
My mum was 69 and had never been seriously unwell before the diagnosis in September, my mum was so healthy and active and I can't believe that she's gone.

I have an 11 year old daughter and a 7 year old son and they were my mums world, my mum should still be here with us. We were all so close and I'm absolutely lost without her. I worry about what happened when I left to go to the bathroom, I was only away a couple of minutes but would my mum have known what was happening, I just can't believe my mum isn't here.