Hello Themitchell123

I'm so sorry to hear about your Aunt. It does sound from your post as if you are a very close family and I'm sure that it has been difficult for you all since her diganosis. 

I'm glad to hear that your husband is supportive. It's OK to be worried about everyone else but it's also very important that you look after yourself too. We've some information on our website here about coping emotionally that may be of help. It's also OK to cry. Our emotions are like a pot of boiling water. If we keep the lid on it then eventually it will boil over. If you're able to take the lid off, even for a short while, then the pressure is released. You may find that if you're able to talk openly to your husband or a friend and let go of some of what you're holding in that you feel better for it. 

If you would rather speak to someone confidentially then there is information about counselling support in the link above or alternatively you can call to speak to one of our nurses. They are available Monday to Friday 9am to 5pm on 0808 800 4040. 

Please don't feel that you're being silly by having posted here. I know that lots of members here will have found themselves overwhelmed by everything that is going on and so you're welcome to post to share and off load when it you feel it helps. I'm sure that the community will do their best to lend a listening ear. 
Sending best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator