My mum was the kindest and most loving person I know. She was only 73. I am 43, single and have always lived with my parents. My mum was diagnosed with COPD many years ago. She struggled with this iĺness. She was finding it most difficult to get around so I bought a new house for us all to live in. She loved it but only got to enjoy it for a short 3 months. Everything was for mum and all of the furniture she picked. On Christmas eve we had to call the ambulance as she was short of breath. They came out and get her levels up so Did not need to go to hospital. Between Christmas and New year she was up and down. New year's eve she was really struggling so we called an ambulance and she was rushed to hospital. The next 6 hours changed my life for ever. She dies on new years morning. I was not expecting it at aĺ and I still cannot believe it. I am having a hard time to come to terms with it. I don't want to get out of bed. I am regretting not telling her I loved her or giving her more hugs. Was there anything I could have done or should have seen. I miss her so much and just do not know how I am going to move on. Everything now seems pointless. I still have my dad so trying to stay strong but I am really struggling. I think about her every minute.