My husband bravely fought multiple myeloma got 31/2 yrs paralysed from chest down I cared for him the pain I feel from his loss is unbearable I miss so much he leaves me 45 and 3 children behind I took him to hospice on my birthday for pain relief not thinking he would not come home, he died on 1/12/19 can't bare Xmas feel so empty .its still only been16 days nights and days are so long don't know we're to turn for support