So I'm not really sure where to start.. my beloved grandpa passed away at the end of September, we found out on the Tuesday he had terminal cancer and he passed on the Sunday. I'm so lost without him, everyday just gets worse. I miss him so so much. I watched him deteriorate in such a short time but missed his last breath and I feel so guilty that I didn't make it to see him before he passed (I was there every day before he passed) so when I went to visit my family had covered him over with a sheet, so my first reaction was to pull it off because I couldn't believe he was gone, that's an image I'll never forget. I also visited him in the chapel of rest. It's nearly 3 months now he's been gone and I'm still as upset as the day he passed. He basically brought me up and was more of a father figure and now he's gone I feel empty :(