Hi all,

Sadly I lost my lovely nan in August after a 3 month battle with cancer. I looked after her a lot during this time and was there when she passed. I am not sure what I want to ask but I still feel very sad at times and find myself looking at old messages that we exchanged.  My family and I have arranged to spread her ashes soon in her favourite holiday place but I don't feel I can do it yet and get very anxious at the thought. I am still in a phase of missing her and feel a real sense of loss and even though I have experienced loss before, it feels different with looking after her and being there when she died. I just feel I need a little more time but not sure when the right time would be but I don't want to stop my family processing it either. Not sure what to do to for the best. My nans loss has been difficult to deal with and I feel like a spent alot of time after her death in autopilot and its all hit me the thought of spreading her ashes.