Hi all, I'm new to the forum please forgive me if I've posted incorrectly. I was just wondering if anyone has any advice for me regarding getting information on what happened to my dear old Dad. He died of cancer ten years ago, at the time I was only 19. When he first got cancer he chose not to tell anyone, he told us he had bronchitis and was poorly for a few weeks before going in hospital, when in hospital the doctor had a meeting with my nana to discuss his cancer (me and my sister were too scared to go.) She let us know he had cancer and didn't have long but I was too upset to question anything. We only knew he'd had it for a while and known about it as my sister later found a letter from the hospital dated 6 months before he died. He probably didn't want to worry us. But now ten years on I have a lot of questions, I want to know what cancer he had and  whether he was offered treatment, what treatment was he on and did he have chemotherapy. I didn't even speak to him about it, he knew that we knew but we didn't talk about it with us, the only thing he said to me was that he didn't want to go down fighting in reference to having an operation to alleviate some pain in his leg which he never ended up having anyhow. I feel awful now as at the time I visited everyday but towards the end he didn't know who I was and I stopped going for a few days, he must have felt really alone, I went when he died as the nurse called us and we stayed all night. I always have a dream that he's poorly and I don't go and visit him and then all of a sudden three weeks has passed and I have to go to his house and check he's alive, I just see him sleeping on the sofa really poorly it's awful. Another dream I have is that my dad was at the end of life and managed to turn it around and beat cancer, in some of my dreams he dies again after having beat cancer 10 years ago (the actual time he died) all very bizarre. Anyhow does anyone know if I'd be able to speak to anyone about my dads medical records or are they strictly locked away/ disposed of even now? My mum is technically next of kin as they were married even though they had parted way before he passed. Thank you for reading xx