The funeral will not be nice but you have to do it for yourself and the kids I know the pain my husband died in March his funeral was April and it was very sad I refused to say goodbye I said goodnight instead I can still smell him in his bedroom as we had to sleep separate as he was so sick bless him to this day I can’t stop crying he has a sister that will not talk to me now which is another blow as we were best friends I think she is blaming me but I know u was his career and know one loved him like me

I am so sorry for your loss and know a little of how you are feeling. I lost my husband of only 10 years nearly 2 years ago and he was only 54. It still feels like yesterday. Sadly we didn't have children together and you do and must see their Dad in them. This tho, when you are so raw, may actually make you feel worse but may give some comfort later on. You try and concentrate on the fact that his suffering is over and that it thankfully didn't last long. My John only lived for 6 weeks after diagnosis and that was an awful shock . Bittersweet as they didn't suffer but that you didn't have time to get your head round your impending loss. Grief hits harder I think. Just now you will be busy with the funeral planning and well wishers dropping by. After the funeral be prepared for an avalanche of grief as it hits you and try and ensure that you have support. Sending you healing hugs and be thinking of you on the 3rd. Be gentle with yourself 

Tricia xx

Hi Leo

so sorry for your loss you will find inner strength to get you through the funeral, I have just lost my husband 3 nearly 3 months ago to cancer in which he was diagnosed only in June and passed away in September. This was so unexpected, I have 2 children age 16 and 18 . Hope you get through this always here to message if need to talk . Xx

So sorry for your loss, I lost my husband three weeks ago and today is our 21st wedding anniversary.  The funeral was the worst day of my life and I absolutely dreaded it but I did get through it and I'm sure you will. My heart feels for you as i know what you're going through. I felt I wanted to be with him when he died so I understand your pain. I try to get by one day at a time and I hope you can too along with your children. ️