I am so sorry for your loss, my dad passed away on 6th July and it is so heart breaking. I initially felt numb,  like it wasnt real and happening to someone else, then a whole host of emotions from anger to sadness, but I think most of all I too felt lost and broken. I think it all takes time and I'm hoping time will make me be able to think about my dad without feeling in pain. 

I'm sending you huge virtual hugs and hope you have some support around you. Grief is horrible x x