Hi septsadness,

I'm so sorry to read about the loss of your mum recently and your dad not so long ago either. It is so hard to lose both parents and the feelings of being without them are awful.

I have also lost both parents and I feel completely lost. My mum died 20 weeks ago of a catastrophic brain hemorrhage and my dad died 21 years ago of a heart attack but he had suffered with non lymphoma for a long time prior to this.

I am grieving for my mum so much and finding life very difficult. I do have a loving partner and 12 year old daughter but still manage to feel very alone.

I had been seeing light at the end of the tunnel a couple of weeks ago, then the deluge of xmas decorations in shops and adverts began and I'm so down again. I dont know how I'm going to get through the next 7 weeks. 

Do you have any siblings that you can lean on? What about partner/friends that can support you? I've had 4 sessions of counselling but it hasnt helped me at all. I'm not going to any xmas drinks and I will be spending a quiet one indoors. Im just hoping to wake up and find that it's the 2nd jan......

I am sorry for your loss. 

My dad passed away on the 1st off December. He was diagnosed with stage 3 lung cancer in the spring of last year. My dads treatment shrunk his tumor by 50% and they said they would scan him again in a year. 

That cancer took every bit off my dads independence away. He worked all his life 8-6 every day walking around a shopping centre. He was a fit and healthy man didnt even retire. As soon as he got his diagnosis he didnt want to go out. Iooking back i feel that he didnt want people to see he looked ill and had lost so much weight. I wish he knew that he was a warrior he never complained once. 

My dad was ill we got the respiratory nurses out 3 times the week prior to his passing. My dad ended up in hospital on the 25th off november. Pnemonia 2 antibiotics and fluids for 4 days. The doctors then told us that there was nothing more they could do. My dad held on for 48 hours and at 11.27 on the 1st off december he took his last breathe.

I am 27 and i am so lost. I am scared to live if that makes sense. I feel i am to young to lose my dad i am still finding my feet and i now dont have him there to guide me. I only just got my first flat last year. I miss him so much and ive cancelled christmas i cant bare to even look at a tree. 

People say this will get easier i hope it does. They say when someone passes that they are always with you i believe this is true. I will carry my dad in my heart for the rest off my life. Christmas will become a celebration in honour off my dad but this year i just cant.

Again i am so so sorry for the loss off your mum and dad.