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My dad passed last week

Victoriadavid
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I dont know where else to turn.

I have plenty of family we are all supporting each other at this very sad hard time but I just feel I cannot and will not get over this I love my dad so very much and I cant see a future without him. I also have chest pains and heart palpitations all of the time and feel like I cant breathe....i get waves of anguish and awful headaches....I'm starting to think have I got something wrong with me too is it going to be me next?my dad was comfortable and he passed at home peacefully with myself my mum and my sisters with him but I just cant get my head around it all I really and truly just want him back...and even tho I was there when he passed I dont know if I can go to the chapel of rest to see him...if found I have started to feel angry and when my mum and sister talk about funeral arrangements and get me involved I get snappy and I feel like I dont want to be apart of it I dont want to choose songs or flowers I just want it all to go the flip away I try to talk to my husband he is just carrying on with life with work I feel like I'm stood still and time is just passing by....but the hole world is still moving I dont know if I'm ever going to feel normal again. Sorry the rant I just dont know what im meant to do I'm being so selfish i know i just want him back.

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    Hi,

    im so sorry to hear about your dad, and I hope that you manage to get through the next few weeks, which are in some way the most difficult but easiest. You will still be so numb to this, 2 years on from my father passing away, my grief is only just started as I have began university and are starting new chapters in my life, just without my dad...

    And when you say that you feel the whole world keeps going on and your stuck, I completely understand, I still sometimes can’t comprehend how people can be so happy when I struggle so much. 

    All I can say right now, and I know you will is just surround yourself with family and keep your dad alive, keep thinking about him and be try replace the sadness with happiness. I’m always here to talk! 

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    Hi,

    I'm sorry to hear about your dad and completely understand and feel your pain. I wish I could reassure you that things will get easier. I can tell you that the chest pain and palpitations ease but dont hesitate to see your GP for reassurance.

    My mum died suddenly of a massive brain hemorrhage 14 weeks ago. I cannot believe she is gone and life is very hard without her. I thought we would have another 20 years together.

    I have cried every day since and have no idea how I have made it this far. Accept the love and support of your family. My partner and daughter have kept me going.

    Cry as much as you need to and dont try and be 'strong'.

    Also here if you need to talk. 

     

    Cheryl x

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    Hi Victoria,

    I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your precious dad. My dad died 2 weeks ago and I feel the same as you, I just want him back. He was my best friend and there is a massive hole in my life now.I have the chest pain too and the best advice I can give you is to just make sure you breathe. It sounds silly but I bet you are walking around all sort of hunched up and tight and taking shallow breaths? Take deep long breaths and really focus on it. It won’t help the pain of losing your dad but it will loosen up your chest. Take it one day at a time and I hope you find some comfort soon ️

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