i have had a hard and difficult life but nothing has been going right since the start of 2016 difficult got a whole new meaning!! My late husband and I found out he had secondary brain tumours and the primary was in his lung. I have never seen anyone who was so strong(he was running around at work!!) to becoming an old man!! He had served in the army in the past too he was always there for me he was my rock and anchor and the kids (grown up and young grandchildren alike) all loved him dearly. This awful disease respects no one! And I found that it put petty squabbles in their place in the order of the scheme of things.
We were told he had six months. There was no cure or operation that would of saved him I’m hoping that that magical day lies not too far off in the future.I helped him put his affairs in order, and he was so very brave. I watched him age before my eyes. We were married on his 62nd birthday and he passed ten days later. I had a wonderful time with him and I miss him every second of every day. I always thought I would die first as I have end stage renal failure I never saw it coming!! Life threw us a curve ball. I have been feeling ill and have now had my fistula done as I promised him and my family I would fight and go down fighting!! He did spend weeks having targeted radiotherapy to the brain tumours but they just grew bigger straight away and I sometimes think all that queuing to get into the hospital all those hours spent waiting to be seen could have been put to better use. I suppose I’ll never know. I do know that I’m facing my own death without my rock and it’s really hard. My mother has now got senile dementia and I have a bi polar daughter who I love so much. My kids and grandkids need me to be here so I’m going to be here as long as Ican.
I have read all your stories that are on here and the only choices we can make are what we think are the right ones. I don’t think there’s right or wrong just we are all on our own journeys and reading about you folks made me cry. You are all wonderful
