So Nan died the day after my last post that’s why I haven’t been on here it’s been hard, I spent a week going through bits and bobs to take had to send the cat to battersea cats and dogs home because she doesn’t like my son.... my aunt has been a god send but has gone home now, but I’m now left with the burden of clearing the house, I haven’t had time to grieve I feel like I’m going in circles and then there is the nightmares , and also a toddler I have to be strong for. I feel like I’m on elastic and it’s going to snap, oh I loved my nanny so much but why did she have so much stuff? I’m hoping for bhf to do the clearance at least then I know it’s going to charity. I just want to grieve now but its just one thing after the other!!! Why can’t death be easier?? This my first close relative to pass and it’s all thanks to cancer, I just keep thinking two weeks ago we were on her sofa chatting and now nothing....