I cant provide any advice as I am in the same position as you I'm afraid.
My mum passed suddenly 12 weeks ago and I simply cannot believe it. I have cried every day for nearly 3 months, I cannot believe she is gone and I feel completely lost and bewildered.
She lived with me and I am surrounded by memories. Sometimes I want to sell the house and leave as I dont see how i can keep living in the house with her empty living room and bedroom.
Every morning i wake and reality hits me and i feel sick pretty much all day long. My appetite isn't the same and i don't enjoy anything any more. I just get through each day as best i can.
Sorry i cant be more helpful and I'm sure i havent cheered you up either.
Hi Laura, I'm Pippa. The thing is, I don't think time heals. Grief isn't something we can fix, it isn't a journey or something we "recover from", I think we just get used to it. I'm sorry, because when I first realised that it scared the hell out of me and I was terrified I'd never feel okay again, but you will. You'll be happy, sad, angry, excited, every emotion under the sun at some point, but you'll always miss your Mum and it will probably always feel raw.
When you say you aren't coping, what do you mean by that? Writing on here at night when I'm upset and can't sleep always helps me, because I just put out what I'm feeling and it's not bottled up inside anymore. My advice is to talk to someone like Macmillan or even your doctor and they should be able to put you in touch with the right people. X
