I have my husband ashes in an urn with two people dancing together on top. I just don’t get the feeling he’s there thought. Not the feeling I expected at all. I have no intention of scattering them, our son can put us together somewhere when the time comes x

That must be so difficult having been together so long. We were married 21 years. I’m sure you can’t imagine a life without him having met so young. How are you getting through each day? Are you still working?

Makes me sad for all of us that our beautufulhusbands are gone. I keep telling myself I am blessed to have been loved by such an amazing man and also to have loved him as deeply as I did. 

I am writing my thoughts in a journal which I find helps. Also trying hard to walk each day 

I gave up work when he was first diagnosed about 2.5 yrs ago. I was him through every hospital visit and stayed 24/7 when he was in hospital for 4-6 weeks at a time.

i am desperately trying to sell the house and downsize as I don’t need this big house with large garden. At the moment I think I may go back to work around  sept 2020 give myself time to settle Ina new property. I was lucky I really enjoyed working with young children.

i try and arrange to do one thing a day or at least meet someone for coffee. I just find everything exhausting.

do you work or have interests that help?

I also write a journal on the iPad which I can add photos to. It’s more of things I want to say to my hubby to get the thoughts out of my head . It is working a bit x

That’s a good idea, I might try journaling. I walk every day over the new forest every day with my dog and I’m trying to mitivaymyself to go to the leisure Centre as I know exercise is good for depression and it will make the evenings less lonely. Like you I must remember how lucky I am to have been loved so unconditionally by such a generous and loving man. He was and always will be the love of my life x

I can’t believe how alike we are! I will be downsizing as well. I do go out each day for a coffee or lunch with someone. On the really bad days I go to my parents at night or they come to me. I also have  a beautiful 4 year old grandson that I see every week. He brings me so much joy. He loved his poppy so much. He talks a lot about him. 

I think writing does help. 

I think you should start a journal. I write to Danny, telling him how I am feeling. I put everything I’m thinking and feeling in the journal. Try it and see if it helps. 

I have my own podiatry business and work 3.5 days per week but I finish at 3.30pm which leaves a long evening. I take my dog out for a walk and then have a cup of tea and I’m thinking of starting back at the leisure centre doing some classes to fill the evenings. I also play golf Friday morning and Monday afternoon. I don’t have a big circle of friends so I try to fill some of my time with hobbies. When I don’t have anything to do I just sit and get upset or duvet dive which can help when I’m really tired.