In November 17 my husband was diognosed with grade 4 glioblastoma. Surgery and subsequent treatment failed and he passed away 3 weeks ago. The 18 month diagnosis became three months because despite surgery and radiotherapy and chemotherapy the treatment was not successful. Everyday is a struggle and I am heartbroken. We were married 43 years and he had only been retired 5 months before he fell ill. I gave up work when he was diagnosed as i am 2 years from reaching retirement age. Dealing with the practical details and putting things in just my name is very painful and I feel like I am just erasing him from my everyday life with every form I fill in. So many people are in my situation and dealing with the grief of losing a loved one and it is so hard. I have family support and grown up children but I want to be strong for them so most times I cry in private like now. I also can’t really take in that he has gone and that he is just away somewhere and will be home.