Hi everyone, 

ive posted quite a lot on here recently, but I’m just soo confused as to why I am feeling this way. My wonderful daddy passed away on the 8th August and his funeral was on Wednesday the 21st. Everyone has commented on how beautiful my daddy’s funeral was- and how proud he would be.

I still don’t feel as if any of this is real - even though it is. I’m  just not as upset as I have been before this all happened- my dads put up a very hard and strong battle for months and months on end and I have cried soo much over the last couple of years. However, the last week or two I have hardly cried - well compared to what I have done in the past or to what I thought I would be. Is this normal ? 

It genuinely feels as if my daddy is still here and im just not seeing him today. Yet it has been almost 2 weeks ... how is this ? 

I have to constantly remind myself what has happened. My daddy was my world, my best friend and someone who id give my life up for if the chance arose.

i just don’t know what to do with myself. Next week is my final week off before work ( I work in a school so I’m off for the school holidays). And i don’t want to go back as the whole reason I went for the job was so that I could see my daddy and have a job too. 

I just feel inhuman.