Hey Again :) 

That’s a great idea, I can’t switch off anymore at night. I’m feeling shattered 24/7 at the moment and I’m not even doing much. X

Hey,

I just wanted to say your story is very similar to mine. I spent 5 weeks in Hospital after my mum was diagnosed and I feel worried I will get awful flashbacks. I found peace being in the hospital room with her every day and night, even stayed over but now I feel alone and stay awake for ages almost wishing I was back with her in the room even if she slept most of the time. Grief does strange things to you X

Hey Fran :)

I was the exact same, I loved spending that time with my Mum; playing music, holding her hand, reading a book, massaging her feet, reading her the headlines.. I didn't get home until 11pm most nights and then I'd crash out immediately, but now I'm awake for ages too.

Carla, I am so, so sorry. You're right though, we're in this together ️. Maybe you could buy a special diary or notebook, and then when you start thinking about those last days and getting upset at night, you could write down a happier time or memory or even just write to her? Just an idea x

The flashbacks are the worst I try to think of happy memories with my mum but for some reason I always resort back to her last days in the hospital and then the funeral hopefully with time that will change xx

I talk to her alot as if she's with me I find that helps x

I might give that a go. Picking up her death certificate tomorrow, so I think I'll need her x

She will be by your side I'm sure I like to think that's where my mum is good luck for tommorow stay strong xx

Thank you