My Beautiful Big Brother passed away on the 5th May this year it has been really hard and confusing, highs are very blazzai and lows are to common. I have been blessed to recieve a promotion at work I am very happy but i just wish my Brother was here to smile at me cuddle me and say good job charlie brown I never doubted you and that smile from your big Brother, the confidence he gave me made everything seem right in the world, im really confused at work I have my good days then I have my fake days when i have to put that fake smile on to make sure I do my job properly then I come home to see a urn in my room and thats my Big Brother now, sometimes I accept it and know he is not in pain anymore and he is in heaven with all my beautiful family then other times I just think about me and my daughter and how much we need him. Today is one of those days I really miss him, I just want to hear his heart beat, I really want to cuddle him. My daughter started a new fantastic job today, the last thing she said to me today was I wish I could tell uncle Paul I know he would be proud of me.

Can anyone help me with a few tips on how to deal with the loss of my Brother/uncle, I am open to any advise from people who have lost family to cancer.

Thankyou