Thanks Paul. You're a wealth of knowledge and kindness. Your messages have really provided me with a lot of reassurance.

Take care and keep well.

Everything changes,

Sorry to go slightly off topic but your user name intrigues me - is it a coincidence or was your Dad (like me) a Jackie Leven fan? There's a beautiful verse in his song Rainy Day Bergen Women which goes -

"I sit in my hotel room
Change my guitar strings
With the tv on
Try not to think about things
I got a certain freedom
And a bucket of grief
And my father in heaven
That is my belief
Everything changes
When your daddy dies
You see new colours
In stranger's eyes."

Not many people sing about grief - Jackie was almost unique in that way and is sorely missed.

Best wishes

Dave

I lost my father to on August 11 2019 after only 4 month battle and find it hard to cope.

Hi Davek, 

No it was a coincidence but a beautiful one. Thanks for sharing, it's so apt. That's my thinking, everything changes once you lose a parent. I will never be the same person and in the short time since my Dad has gone, I look at people differently. I wonder if they still have a Dad. 

Take care.

So sorry to hear this Johne. It's tough and I feel your pain. It's just the worst thing we are forced to bare in our lifetime. The endless questions, the false guilt, this whole process.