Hi Matty - it's very sad that you've lost your dad especially as you are so very young but I'm glad your mum is a support for you. Sometimes though, it's good to tell someone else how you are feeling so I'm glad you posted here.  & no, it doesn't sound corny at all. Letting it out is important.

I can really empathise with you about what you say about 'unanswered questions'. I'm old enough to be your grandma & my dad died when I was 24 & we didn't have a close relationship either. Perhaps now is not the time for you to dwell on those unanswered questions but just to get through the next few weeks & months the best way you can. You will miss your dad & you will be sad but in the future you might be able to talk to other family members & people your dad knew & find some answers to your questions. That's what has happened to me over the years & it does make things much easier.

Do post again if you feel like it. People here know what it's like to lose someone they love & will support you. Take good care of yourself. x

Thank you so much for your reply, it does mean a lot that there’s always someone in the same boat as you and someone to listen when we need it the most. I really appreciate all the support. I will try to keep in focus and always keep my emotions in check. I have talked to a few family members and i’m keeping in contact with them, although I won’t dwell too much on what doesn’t need to be dwelled on. 

Truly, thank you so much for your reply, it really means a lot. xx

You are so welcome & I'm glad I helped a bit at least. Don't tho' try to keep your emotions too much in check will you. They are better out than in. You are very wise I think not to dwell too much on what doesn't need to be dwelt on. 

Take care of yourself & do post again if you feel you want to.

All the very best to you. x

Thank you very much, I wish you the best as well. xx

Hi, 

What you have written are completely normal feelings to experience , my dad died in 2014, the worst thing was after a period I could hear him talking, but it wasn’t his voice if that makes sense, a positive to take out of this awful situation, is that we had the time with them at the end, I would never have spent the time I did with dad if he hadn’t have been ill, those are very precious moments and memories now, however awful they may make you feel, a very good friend of mines dad just had a massive stroke and died there and then, and it made me think about my own experiences with dad, I had the time to talk to him as I think you have done, and prepare as much as anyone can for them actually dying, I think the fact you are talking about your feelings is really positive, and thanks for sharing Darren 

Hi Darren, thank you for your reply. Indeed it’s important to cherish the moments we’ve had with our respective loved ones, and there’s a sense of emotional fulfilment I suppose, having been with them in their last days. My dad couldn’t speak when I last saw him, but I know he heard me speak to him and it warms my heart that he waited to see me before he passed, despite the pain he’s in. My deepest sorrows to your friend for the tragic loss of his Dad. Thank you very much for your reply, it means a lot to have people to relate too.  

Hi

I know just how you feel! It is just so overwhelming sometimes isn't it? I lost my dad in 2009. I am old enough to be your gran but he was still my dad! One thing I can promise you is that you will start to remember all of the wonderful things you have done together, all the laughs and good times! You will be surprised how many there are. Of course you will cry and get angry and all the rest because that is normal but I promise you there will be laughter too! On the day of my dad's funeral we had a load of fireworks! My brother's were being idiots just as they have been all of there lives! And we laughed! And we knew that somewhere or other my dad was laughing too and saying "silly buggers" just like he always had.

Sending a hug xxx