I am so sorry that you have lost your husband, sweetheart. I know you may feel incredibly alone and isolated in this grief and as though time is moving along but you aren't. I know it's hard to even take the pity and sympathy from other people because even with that support you know deep inside they don't feel how you do and never knew your husband how you did. They won't see the memories replaying that you do, or miss the little things about having your loving partner around so all they can do is offer condolences. Having dealt with my own loss and grief I know how hard it can be to accept that the person you love is truly gone and that now your life will continue without them. But I want you to trust me when I say that time will aid you in your grief, it is cliché and honestly if I was in your position I'd be annoyed at the mere thought of that because I know there's a part of you that doesn't want to let go of the grief because it is all you have left holding on to your husband. Time will heal you so that the good memories you have of him will only live on as that, good memories. You have people around you who love you but when you isolate yourself they can't truly understand the grief, stress and heartache you're going through. Please, if for your husband or yourself, speak to someone. The pain never just disappears but you learn to cope step by step and the one thing that helped me most was talking to those close to me. Please don't shut them out, I know it's easy to because you can write them off as never knowing what you're going through but believe me when I say it will truly aid you. If you're not ready yet, I am here. I can listen to you and offer anything I possibly can to support you.