Welcome to the forum Pashmarley although I'm very sorry for your loss.

Coping with grief is very tough as many of our members here will tell you, but if you're finding it a bit too much at the moment then it may be worth speaking to someone about this. Some have found bereavement counselling to be quite helpful whilst others have spoken to their GP. 

There are many difficult obstacles on this journey but for the moment, just try to take things a day at a time.

My thoughts are with you Pash.

Kind regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hello sweetie - it's very, very sad that your have lost your nan & it is VERY normal to feel as sad as you do & it really isn't very long since she passed away. It takes quite a long time to get back to normal when you lose someone you love - it's a bit like trying to wade through wet sand which is up to your neck. It makes you feel tired & scared you'll never get out of it. If you can accept that you are normal & what you are feeling is normal things might get a bit easier for you.

You say that you sometimes feel that you don't want to be here. If that feeling doesn't go away soon it might be worthwhile going to see your GP. He or she will understand how you feel & might offer you some help. There are things that can help I promise.

What matters most is that you try to understand that what you are feeling is part & parcel of the horrible grief process that all of us go through. Keep trying sweetie to haul your way through that sand & sooner than you think you'll be walking on it & not through it. Take care of yourself - sending a virtual hug.x

Hi sorry to hear about your Nan. I fully understand how you feel and yes, its normal as you are going through the grief process but things will get better. You will always miss your Nan but it will get easier.

When I lost my Dad 30 yrs ago it felt like a part of me had gone with him and I had terrible depression for a long time after but it does get better in time. Your Nan would not want you to grieve for her, she would want you to get on with your life and be happy.

You can go and see your Dr and they will understand and will probably refer you to a counseller so you can talk to them about your feelings. There are bereavement support groups who you can help. Is there someone in the family you can talk too? Don't keep it bottled up.

Just remember it will get better and just take it one day at a time.

God bless