Tinsy! I read this and its like how I know it will be for me. My husband is still here but it is terminal and I just dont' know what I will do without him. Reading your post sort of put it right in my head. I am older and my boys are older but still at home and I hope that one day I will become the camper van for them. <3 

Leah, I lost my dad very sudden years ago, I can still remember the pain I felt. You learn to live with it and I know I make my dad proud every day. Take care of yourself hun xxx

I am so sorry to hear that your dear husband is terminal. You must both have a lot of inner strength already. I will be here for you whenever you need an understanding ear. I will attempt to friends request you, but I am rubbish at these type of things. I only joined the site a couple of days ago and it took me hours to work out how to even talk on here LOL.

Thank u means a lot xxx

I am so sorry for your loss.  I too have had a rough go of it.  I think that is why we all end up here.  Someone asked me to describe my grief and I ended up creating an entire website! But I wasn't sleeping anyway.  I wish you well and I am sorry for your loss.

Grief to me is an open wound that keeps getting nudged, hit, or rubbed up against. It is not a deep gash or hole rather more like a severe brush burn, you know the type, where your skin is missing, it is bright red, and even air touching it hurts like hell.  Even if I think I have come close to closing this open wound, someone comes along in my life whether it is friend, family, or a complete stranger starts to pick at the scab, and it hurts like hell all over again.

If you would like to read the full article...http://exploringgrief.com/whats-grief-to-me/