Hi
I sadly lost my dear dad a week before xmas. He had cancer in one of his kidneys which, because of where it was, couldn't be removed. Up until October, you wouldn't think there was anything wrong with him, but he ended up in hospital for 2 weeks because he was passing blood in his urine, and he deteriorated after that. He was put on new medication and I literally watched him fade away in those last few weeks.
Me and my brother have worked together to sort things out at his house, but I have had to deal with a lot of the legal stuff, paperwork etc as he is not local. It's been really hard - I feel like I have been on autopilot for the last few weeks, and it's all now catching up with me and I am struggling to deal with it all.
I miss him so much, I keep wanting to pick the phone up to have a natter with him but I can't.
