I lost my mum nearly 5 weeks ago and I have felt numb ever since - I have been getting on with life and have kept really busy, my dad sold his house and the exchange happened a week after she passed away &I have a 3 year old as well as arranging the funeral.

i am now starting to feel lost, I have been doing loads of gardening because Mum loved her gardening & it makes me feel calm- but I go back to work tomorrow and I’m dreading it. 

The people are lovely and it’s not pressured, but I always used to ring Mum in my lunch break and she sometimes came to meet me for lunch before she got too ill, now I just feel so sad about it all.

There is a massive hole in my life, we did everything together, always texting and making plans -  now life seems prettty pointless . I’m still grieving for my brother who we lost 2 years ago, also from cancer and it’s just so so sad - I loved them both so much.

I also can’t help compare myself to others my age (38) who still have their mums - I’ve just started my own family and now my little girl won’t have her grandma or her uncle.