Hi there Simon...

There's no time limit on grief ... look at queen Victoria went into morning for decades ... l miss my mum as much to day as I did the day she left ... 30 years ago in November... but we do learn to carry on without them ...

Just think of the years you had ... so many people never know what true love is ... and you sound like you had that ... I know it doesn't help, as we want more .. but I believe we keep them in our hearts ... and carry them with us wherever we go ... have you got family around you ... coz if you close right up, sometimes it pushes family away ... as it's upsetting seeing you so upset ...

Could you do some voluntary work for a charity .. they are always looking for helpers .. I found I get far more back then I give ... and l used to volenteer for McMillan before I got cancer... I'd sit with some .. help little jobs or shopping ... take some to their treatments who had no transport ... it really does help ..

But you have to find that strength to reach out .. we can sit grieving for ever, or we can feel blessed we had them in our lives .. and think what she would feel seeing you so sad ... you'll always miss her .. but you have the chance to do something for others ... and slowly you will mend .. but still carry them every day in your heart ...  chrissie x