My name is Jack, I'm 16 and in October 2017 my mum passed away because of breast cancer.
I never knew my real father and I lived alone with my mum. She was beautiful, kind and amazing in every way. She could do anything and made everyone around her happy. She ended up marrying my new dad and gave birth to my sister in 2012. We had always been very close and then one day I got home from school and she told me that she had been diagnosed with breast cancer and it had spread to her liver. She always wanted to be open and hide anyting from me which I appreciated. I cried for hours after she told me she had around a year to live. She always said that we had ages left and my sister was too young to understand. Months passed and then another day after school she told me she had less than a week. I had the rest of the week off school and spent time with my family. On thursday my sister had a show that my dad and I attended but all I could think was that my mum should've been there instead of me. When we left a relative said there was an ambulance at my house taking my mum into a home. She couldn't speak and I couldn't stop crying. When we got there I saw her lying in a bed barely moving and wept. After calming down I went to sit in a waiting room with some of my family. 1:50pm my uncle enters the room telling me to step out with him. I start to tremble as we walk to my mum. I see her lifeless and cold. Everyone is upset.Over the next week my sister asks when mummy's coming back and I have to remind her of the painful truth. Ever since then I've seen things that have made me think "I wish I could share this with my mum.". Songs, movies, pictures, games, conversations. I just finished watching an amazing movie which made me think this and Made me think I want to tell someone. My dad trys his best but isnt very supportive and the rest of my family also help a lot but it always seems to be the same "it will get better with time" and other similar lines. It helps but still doesn't make me feel completly better. What i want most of all is to have someone like my mum who I could share all my feelings with properly as I could with my mum, someone who I could share all the music and shows that I want to watch with her. I probably just want a girlfriend who wouldn't replace my mum but could do the same as she once did although this probably isn't the right place to go for that. I'm not sure why I wanted to rant here. Thank you to anyone who read all of this. I greatly appreciate it.
