Believe me I know this doesn’t help you but I have some idea how you are feeling. I lost my mum and my best friend on 14th April and just feel totally lost, cheated, numb. She never got her official diagnosis. From first doctors appointment to passing away it was 3 weeks. Some days I struggle to get out of bed, my heart aches so much.

What I’m trying to say is how you’re feeling is normal. It’s ok to feel all those things. Surround yourself with good people and even tho they aren’t your dad they will get you through. I’ve been told it gets easier, I’m yet to experience that myself yet, but I hold on to the hope that it’s true. 

Be kind to yourself and remember it’s ok if the only thing you do today is breath.

Hi Thank you for your reply that is so kind and lovely words ..and so sorry for your loss too ..it's a rollercoaster of emotions as you know and I feel the same I've yet to experience it getting easier but it's only been 6 long painful days ..I just hope that day will one day come to us both xx

I too lost my wonderful husband with brain cancer in December.  Up until June when we first became aware that he had Grade 4 Gliobastoma he was perfectly fit and healthy.  We had been together over 50 years, since we were young teenagers and we did and shared everything together.  Thankfully I have many wonderful memories of all the things we did together but it’s very little compensation for my huge loss.  I am not coping very well with him not being here beside me every day - he was my rock and always a tremendous support to me and our family, and always very loyal to his friends.   Unless anyone has suffered such a huge loss you cannot describe how excruciating the ongoing pain is - you just suffer it continuously.

Hiya Scottie lady 

I am so sorry for your loss too ..it's the most cruel disease ever ..my dad was also fit and healthy was given clean bill of health in the November ..the have secondary brain metastasis with unknown primary was such a shock to us ..did your husband have primary brain cancer xx