However you feel in normal...numb, angry, traumatised, it’s all ok. Be kind to yourself and give yourself some time.  Don’t feel like you should be healed as this is all still very new. I lost my mum on 14th April and some days I can’t get out of bed. We’ve just got to do whatever we can to get through the day and remember it’s ok if all you did today was breath.

hello 

i lost my dad in Dec he was only 69 and im numb still, my sister cries but i cannot .. im thinking of getting some councelling to help me, when i feel like im getting upset something in me clicks and them feelings are put in a box in my brain shut away .... im sure this is not healthy but i think this is because the pain would be too much to bear .. 

L x 

Hi 

I lost my mother in Nov last year it's coming up to 6 months without her. We were extremely close, saw her everyday because I wanted to.  She more or less brought my two children up in order for me to work. My children adored her as she did them. I loved her without a doubt but like you Daisy I cannot cry.

I've cried some but not like I would expect after losing my lovely mother and I feel I'm dishonouring her by just functioning day by day.  If I think of her and how she was I just start blocking it and move on to something else not intentionally and not because I want to it as if my brain will not allow me to accept the cruel, bleak finality that I will never see the most precious person to me again.

Also my sister cries a lot and this just makes me feel ten times worst as if I'm some emotional devoid person. People keep saying 'let it out, you have to' but it's almost like a wall has gone up and it's not coming down. Some days I feel I'm going crazy with co constantly asking myself why are you not crying and just feeling numb and some days even normal. The guilt of not crying is crushing.

Just wanted to reply to say you're not alone in how you are feeling. X x x x