My dad was diagnosed with lung cancer September 2018  Daddy was so very ill, weight loss and pains in his legs and waist.  We were told as a family that daddy would only have months if not weeks, that was so hard to take in.  Myself and my mother decided that we would do Hospice at home.  It was a difficult time taking care of daddy as he physically could not do things that he used to do for himself. Watching my dad deteriate, was the hardest thing, the cancer was metastatic, and had spread to his brain.  I love my dad so much, with all the pains he went through, i felt i was going through his pain. Dad died just before xmas last year 2018, and to this day i remember my gorgeous, caring, and loving father with all the memories of him, there is never a day that i don't burst into tears, i try to take control but i am not finding it easy.  My mother has been very strong but is know starting to cry,  it has been so difficult for both of us.

I am pleased that we made the choice to take care of him at home, i was able to tell him that i loved him so much, and that he was a fantastic father and did his best to look after his family.