My Dad and now my mum.

I have posted a reply on here but I wanted to introduce myself.

I lost my dad 15 months ago to liver and pancreactic cancer.  It happened very quickly, no idea he had cancer.  Went into hospital on a Tuesday and died early hours on the Tuesday the following week.  Having not yet come to terms with it my mum was diagnosed on Saturday having been taken into hospital with clots on her lung.  The cancer has gone to the neck, hip and also stomach.  She is being offered radio therapy at present.  I feel scared, anxious, alone, angry.

Im finding work, cleaning and general everyday life just too much.  I dont want to talk to people.  Going into a supermarket or even to put fuel in the car is just too much.  I dont know how to function anymore and wondering how to cope.  

Even just to talk on here is comforting.  I have been offered counselling but speaking to others who are going through the same is far more comforting and supportive.

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  • I know this feeling, when seeing people doing every day life things, smiling chatting while we are afraid to talk to anyone because we know that if they say something it my trigger our sensitive side and will break into cry, or the concerns  they have are so minor compared whit what we are going through. It such a task to keeping it together and still function when inside you are broken, when you feel that you could shout your head off to release the pain from inside you. We need to believe that somehow we’ ll found strength to continue life and enjoy it.    Cancer sucks, and if it would be something material that I could touch I would kill it myself. I hate cancer, and so does millions of people.!

  • I feel for you as a mother and a daughter - Loosing your parents or your childis the worst thing to happen in your life - Cherish your mum - even talking with her about your dad - the funny times sad times - 
    I have cancer and my daughter - 23 - and I talk openly about it - yes even making jokes 
    The memories you have will never go away 
    It isnt easy and hope you stay strong for your mum and yourself