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Loss of my mum at such a young age

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I lost my mum on the 3rd of March. She was only 39 and it’s been so hard for me as me and my brother are still only teenagers. I feel like life has cheated us as she was such an amazing and selfless woman who didn’t deserve all the pain she went through. I keep having flash backs in my head of her in hospital and struggling to breath and in so much pain and I can’t get the images out my head. It only hit me today when I tried sorting the freezer out and the pie was in there that we kept saying we’d have together and never actually got around to it and I realized she was really gone forever. The house is so empty and eerie without her. She was my bestfriend and my soul mate we were more like sisters. Has anyone else experienced the loss of there mum at such a young age and have any coping methods 

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    Hi ya ...

    So so sorry you lost your mum ... cancer is really crule ... my little nieces lost their dad early on .. one was about 12 the little one was 10 months ... she has no memories of her dad .. but she's now an amazing lass .. finished uni ... and has done really well .. it's harder on the oldest one .. but when she gets low days, we talk about the funny things he did ... 

    You havnt lost your mum, she's right there tucked up safe in your heart .. look in the mirror ... you are half of her ... so everything you do in life, she'll see it through your eyes ... l lost my parents when I was in my 30s ... l felt cheeted ... 

    My friends daughter was 17 and in the middle of exams ... she threw herself in to that to block out those memories of her mum's terminal breast cancer ... l think she managed as best she could .. but she still feels low sometimes ... and she felt cheated too ... she has her mum's smile, and it's like a part of her mum is right there ...

    Try to think of the funniest memory you have of your mum .. relive it slowly , till it pushes the sad memories away ... your mum would want you to remember the years before cancer... that is who your mum was ... i know as I'm going through my breast cancer journey now ... and if it takes me, I'll stick 2 fingers up to cancer. . And tell my son to remember the good memories...

    Sending you a big vertual hug... Chrissie

     

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    So sorry your going through cancer, I know how horrible it is as I’ve watched my mum go through it. Me and my mum always talked about heaven and that we knew there was definitely another place etc, I admired her always taking pictures of her and showing her off she was truly beautiful. You sound like such a lovely woman who wants to help others even though your going through it and it always happens to the best people. Sorry for the loss of your parents, no matter how old you are it’s just as hard as the world is a lonely place without them. It’s jice to hear your nieces are getting on with their lives I really hope your okay and thankyou for the reply. Ashleigh x

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    Heya x I’m in a similar position to u, my mum died at 40 when I was 11, and my sister was 9 I understand what u mean about the flashbacks and i experience them constantly if u need to talk I’m more than happy to and it would help me a lot too xxx wishing u all the strength in the world xx

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