i'm twenty and i just lost my dad (54) to cancer. i love him so much he's my best friend. i thought he had so much longer left and i'm glad he's not in pain anymore but i can't accept that i'm never going to see him again. i know he wants me to live a happy life but i'm scared that i'll never be able to accept that he's gone. he's my hero and my world, my heart is completely broken and i don't know how to deal with this.