just lost my nan over the weekend, she was diagnosed with cancer of the osophegus 5 months ago. Her knowing she was dying is devastating however she was Nana and was a strong woman. 

Even though I know this was coming I realise I was in denial and just put in my head she would kick it's *** even though her body was not strong enough 4 treatment.

I Have been lucky enough to only experience grief once as a child. I feel so ill with guilt and anger that this has happened. It was not her time however i suppose we can all say that!

I feel like I will never get over this but writing on here as helped get my feelings out. x