Hi there and welcome ..

You've been through the crulest pain there is, loosing a child ... my heart goes out to you ... all I would say is your daughter is still in her children .. you will never fully loose her while you have them in your life ...

I believe it's not god that does these things ... cancer is evil ... crule... and doesn't care who it takes ... and cancer wants us to blame something else .. it has No compation .. and it wants to hurt everyone who is touched by it .. esp loved ones ... 

I think we learn to move on, except when it's our children, our babies ... a bit of us dies with them .. but I also think a bit of them lives in us too ... my cousin lost his oldest daughter and she left behind 1 year old twin girls .. he will never be the same again ... but he's put all his and his wife's time into caring for those twins ... they are now 9 ... and he always tells them about their amazing mum ... and they watch videos and talk about her all the time ... it's really helped him .. but his heart was broken ..

Sending you a vertual hug.... Chrissie