I'm so sorry to be welcoming you to the forum under these circumstances Hilly and on behalf of the moderation team, I would like to offer you our heartfelt condolences for your loss.

I can't begin to imagine how difficult this must be you right now but I want you to know you are not alone as many of our members have sadly been on this journey as well and hopefully some of them will reply soon to offer their support and advice.

Do keep chatting to us here on the forum when you may be finding it difficult to stay strong Hilly and for the moment just try to take things a day at a time.

Kind regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator