Hi  completely understand. Lost my dad Sept 2018. I'm really struggling still and always will

We are certainly together in grief and loss. How lucky are we to have dads that had such an impact. We loved them and they us ️

We are certainly together in grief and loss. How lucky are we to have dads that had such an impact. We loved them and they us ️

The bright sunny days have helped, I can think of sitting outside in the evenings with him with a glass of wine.  I regret those days were too few and far between because of work but you can't go back can you.  The happy memories are coming back more and more over the replays of those last few days.  On bad days I look at their holiday photos which helps now.  I think I will never have anyone who cared about me as much as my parents, or as much as I cared about them.  

Just joined in the hope of finding others who are grieving after loosing their father.

My father died suddenly at 66 two weeks ago, and the post mortem yesterday revealed he died from a huge internal bleed due to liver cancer - he was undiagnosed, and had no obvious symptoms leading up. We assumed he had a heart attack.

What makes it worse is that my uncle passed away 5 weeks ago from pancreatic cancer, and my father and mother had been looking after him for nearly 10 months. That was traumatic in itself.

I have two young children and a partner, a mother and brother, but I just don't want to live without him anymore. I did everything with him, played in the same band, went to watch football together, spoke on the phone for over an hour each night, shared the same sense of humour. He was my best friend.

I know it's raw, but I suffer from depression, and I cannot see myself recovering from this.

Many thanks.

Hold on tight it's so difficult , I am 13 months on now from my dad going, it made me terribly ill I was that upset and as you read it seems most of us experience similar thoughts and feelings. I wanted to die to be with him. I went round and round the events leading to him going it took months to get beyond that then the pain of missing him kicked in.

you will have just ok days and bad days it's a journey you have to take. I still have days that really hurt and others I feel masses of love for him and know I'm lucky to ever feel that way about someone and know the same from him. 
 

it's not easy but try to stay well xxx 

You must still be in shock, it's hard to take it all in for first few weeks, the grief is overwhelming and the pain  feels so physical doesn't it.  I used to, and still do sit down with a cup of tea and tell my dad about my day as I too used to have daily hour long chats on the phone.   It helps me to continue to talk to him, I feel so much grief and guilt that I've been very slow learning to live with his loss, as someone said, you don't get over it but you learn how to live with it. It's a cliche but it does take time, and you can get there.  Try to look after yourself, and your mum too   X