Bless ya, life's sure not fare, just when you so need her ... l found it so hard loosing mum in my 30s .. it must be so harder for you ... it's still so raw .. have you had councilling... call McMillan their number is on their home page .. and ask what help you can get in your area ..
If you hold it all in now, it will stay with you .. l know it's probly difficult talking about her.. and yes councilling may make you feel worse for a while, as it brings feelings back .. but the more you talk, the more you'll be able to deal with things ..
I'm always here most days .. I'm listening ... your not alone ... there's lots of threads on here at the moment of people who have lost a parent .. if you look for them, and put your thoughts down, you'll see others hurting like you .. and maybe help each other ..
Grief is there for a reason, it's your brain trying to make sense when there is none ... and you need to tell your self it's o.k .. if you feel angry or scared ... it's o.k .. when it feels overwhelming, close your eyes recall the best, funniest memory you have of your mum... relive it very very slowly .. remember how it made you feel... relive every word .. how you felt that day .. and do it over and over till it pushes those bad memories away ...
So you've made a first big big step comming on here .. now journey starts with just one step ... would love to hear from you, and to know if you get some help .. but I'll always listen too ..
