Hi There...

I was only 36 when l lost my amazing mum to a massive heart attack... I'd talked to her that morning ... she was comming up mine the next day ... we were inseparable... 

Your going to be in shock for a while yet ... there's no easy way round it ... it's just living one day at a time ..  that was 30 years ago, and although we do learn to live without them, we never stop missing them ...

Yes a part of us dies with our mum's, but a part of them lives in us ... she tucked up in your heart now .. safe ... youll take her on your journey through life ... and you know the day l was diagnosed with a grade 3 breast cancer. .. i started finding lovely white feathers everywhere, and nearly every day a small one would be inmy bra ... i had a mastectomy ... got used to the feathers appearing ... the day i was told it was contained and low chance of spread , they stopped ... 

I believe they are looking down on us ... think what she would say to you now ... I've tried to live my life bringing her with me and doing things to make her proud ... she was kind to everyone  ... we all still talk about her ..  and let yourself feel all those feelings ... we were blessed to have had amazing mum's ... some never know that love ... but be kind to your heart ... tell it it's o.k to miss her .. it's o.k to feel all those feelings ... but when you get them out , try to do what she'd want you to do ... Chrissie