Hi.
I lost my mum new years day to esophageal cancer.
We knew there was nothing that could be done and we was told my mum would see xmas and new year, but still none of us was prepared for it so soon.
She seemed as if she was getting better after a chest infection. Went shopping for new years dinner.
I got a call new years eve before work as she was coughing up blood. I phoned doctors and McMillan nurses at hospital. When doctors came out she was rushed into A&E.
After putting camera down her throat we was given the news that my mum was passing away. She died next morning 08.55.
I have been totally lost and angry since her passing. Everyone gets the wrath of my anger.
I spent a lot of time with my mum in her last few months. Days out. Meeting family we hadn't seen for years. Took her back to her family home and where she grew up on farm. Where she met my dad.
I just want to know that she is ok. I always phoned and asked if she was ok. I can't do that now and its hurting that I don't know how she is.
I just want the chance to ask her if she is ok.