Hello everyone. My dad died nearly a year ago (23 feb) and it’s also his birthday a few days before. I’ve been managing my grief quite well up until Christmas but have been dreading next week for a while now and feel like I’ve gone backwards. I’m crying a lot and keep thinking back to when he was really poorly, feeling angry at the doctors, guilt that I didn’t do more and generally just missing him. We lived a long way from each other so didn’t see each other that often so I think some of it is missing him as he usually would have come to stay around Christmas and then I would visit in spring. The birthday and anniversary are so close together, it’s hard. I can’t travel to where my dad lived on his anniversary so I don’t know how to remember him or where to go. Does anyone have any ideas or words of wisdom?! Thank you.