Hello Skras and welcome.  I am sorry you lost your mum when she was still too young.  I lost my mum some years ago to cancer and agree with what you have said.  Your mum is always in your heart and in my case I still talk out loud to my mum sometimes.    The love you had will always be there and becomes a part of who you are as you travel through life.  Thank you for posting; so many people here are suffering from having lost a loved one and find it hard to believe they will ever recover at all.  The pattern of life and death applies to all animals (and we are all species of animal) and the experiences you had with loved ones shape the person you are.  Lots of people have conversations on this forum about the nature of grieving every day which I think is a good thing.  My best wishes to tyou.  Annie

Thank you Annie for your kind words.  I am also sorry to hear of your mothers passing.  X x 

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I also lost my mum to an aggressive form of kidney cancer on 14th October 2018! I was 37 weeks pregnant the day she passed and I was in complete denial she was dying I’m 26 and feel robbed?  it breaks my heart she never got to meet my baby she was Beyond excited and I have so many questions I just need her so much she was my best friend and I wonder will I ever stop crying? My baby is literally my strength! 

I am so sorry for your loss.   I know all too well the utter pain and heatbreak you are feeling now.  A few months after my mum passed away I cried almost every night for few hours at a time.  You have to get it out love,  cry as much as you need to, you have been dealt a massive blow. I was in denial, for the first year to be fair.  The first year is the hardest and the 2nd Is not much easier.  One day you will wake up and you will not feel so sad and lost.  My family also keep my strong. My two daughters and my husband are my rocks.  Lean on family and friends in those first few raw months, don't push anyone away. You need people around you.  I have found since I have lost my mum, me and my dad are alot closer,  it breaks my heart how it has affected my dad. She was the glue that held everything together, the heart of the home.  Things will get easier but don't expect too much from yourself in the first year. Allow yourself to grieve, it's the only way to start the healing process.  I was few months before my 30th when my mum passed away,  but I believe she was their with me in spirit.  We will always keep our loved ones memory in our heart and we will never forget them.  I am sending you strength and lots of love.  X x 

Hi. I lost my mum 1 week ago suddenly just after 10 days she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer . She was my everything. I’m devasted and can’t accept  i will not see/ touch/ hug her anymore ..my dad passed away just 9 months ago.. my life has just been turned upside down. Please help I feel nobody can understand help 

I'm so sorry my love.  It all feels like a nightmare at the beginning that you just want to wake up from but can't.  For me the first few weeks I was numb in disbelief at the reality and realisation that i would never see, hear, hug my mum again.  its a bittersweet pill to swallow.  is there any other family that can support you? And siblings or aunties/uncles. Close friends.  I understand the pain you are going through, I am sorry that you have lost both your mum and dad in such a short space of time..  Sending you hugs x x