Hi Chomper77, 

My heart goes out to you so sorry to hear you lost your mother I also hate cancer with ever fibre of my being. I lost my Mam to NSCLC in November 2018 and am struggling to believe my mother has truly gone, even though I saw her dead, sorted out the death certificate etc, had the funeral, cleared her house out and it's been two months since I last saw her, spoke to her I am still in disbelief. It feels like I'm living in some kind of dream, just surreal.

Like you my mother was my whole world, my best friend, I spoke and saw her pretty much every day. She was a second mother to my two children. I just find it so very hard to comprehend she's gone.

It is a hideous evil disease which destroys everything it has taken the best part out of all our lives.

I can't offer any advice I just wanted you to know you're not alone, there are people here who understand x x x