Dear Littleyank04

I'm so sorry for you to have to experience such a devastating loss especially at such a young formative age. . And I'm so truly sorry that your dear mum had to leave you. . All of us here who are mums struggle to cope after losing our own mums  . But the thought of leaving the world and our children here to cope without us as mothers it's unthinkable. . So please let me give you a perspective from what I imagine your mum would want you to know. As I know that I'd want my children to know at your age. Firstly there are very few teenagers who do prefer the company of their parents over their friends /boyfriends /music and all that distracts young teenagers such as you.  The blessings we're given as mums and I'm positive your mum the same is that we know however much time you don't give to us.  Or however much more interested you all are in other things we as your mum's know that we sit firmly in your hearts. . As mums we enjoy and watch on in both wonder and despair  (sometimes) at the way in which your growing and becoming a young person in your own right. . We understand the moods that are naturally a part of becoming a teenager from child and adult from teenager. . The very last thing we would or your mum would want from you is to feel any ANY guilt for anything you think you might have done or not done. . We know leaving you is going to hurt you enough and we will worry that we won't be here to comfort you. Knowing this we couldn't bare for you to put any heavier burden on yourself for feeling bad about something that we know all teenagers do  (because we were teenagers once also and didn't spend any time at all with our own parents ) .. If fate is kind, we grow up to be young women who have babies and that's the point in time we understand the value of our mums. . You dear heart fate has dealt you a cruel hand and you have had to lose your precious mum far too soon and have had to realise the value way before your time and in death. . It's unbearable to imagine. . But please if nothing else. . Please know that your mum will want you to know that she knows that you loved her. . And how much you loved her. . Before you even knew. . Because she too was once young and carefree just as you WERE and are meant to be. . Let go of any guilt because your mum more than anything she would not want you to feel it.  I hope you believe me and I pray that you stay close to those that you love. . and together find the way out of the dark. . Bless you sweetheart xx