Thank you for your kind words Llkk. I am so sorry you lost your Dad too. 

That is one thing I am very thankful for that my Dad is no longer in pain and suffering. It was unbearable to see. 

Its difficult but I’m trying not to think about him when he was in hospital and am trying to remember him how he was without the cancer.

Sending all my love, strength and prayers to you xoxox

Hi Linda, thank you for your message. I’m so sorry about your Mum. It just helps to have support and people that understand what I’m going through. 

Its a horrible disease and to see how your loved ones are affected by it is devastating. 

It just helps to know that there will be good days again. 

Thank you, you too x

I am so sorry for your loss,I lost my dad this morning. The pain  is so bad my heart is physically breaking .

Both of my parents were diagnosed with stage 4 cancer as well. I just lost my dad to duodenal adenocarcinoma and my mom is in palliative care for small cell lung cancer. It has become difficult to function daily and I’m sorry you are in this nightmare too. We have to be strong because it’s the only thing left to be. 

So sorry for your loss Esther. I have 3 kids, 27, 26, 22 and their dad ( My darling husband) recently passed & they're all finding it difficult to cope especially our 27 year old. She's very emotional as it is and has been throwing plates around, smashing them, kicking doors etc and she's especially angry at her dad for leaving so early. 

You're being so brave looking after your mum whilst you're going through this difficult time. 

My kids all thought of their dad as their protecter and he was right up until he got ill.

I've asked for counselling for us all as a family to help us.

Maybe it's a thought for you when you're ready xxx x

Take care sweetie. 

Scared1961 I’m really sorry about your Dad. I also felt as if my heart was breaking. The pain feels so real. I honestly don’t know if it does get any better. I’m still walking around in a sort of daze. I feel like as it’s been nearly a week people are already expecting me to be okay, to have started to have dealt with it. I don’t think I’ll ever be okay again. If you need to talk please keep in touch 

gtarhro I would not wish our situations on anyone. I’m so sorry about both your Dad and your Mum as well. It is definitely a nightmare and I agree we do have to be strong but you also need to remember yourself. It’s too much for one person to take on all on their own. There are people out there going through the same thing so if you ever need to talk please get in touch. Your Mum needs support but you need support too. 

I am really sorry to hear about your husband Maxine. Sounds silly but I always thought my parents would be with me forever. Everyone deals wit grief differently and I guess that’s just your daughters way of coping with everything. 

I saw my Dad is so much pain during the last few days it was horrible and knowing that he is no longer in that pain is helping slightly. 

Thank you but I’m not brave. I owe my parents everything and I would do anything for them. Helping my Mum is just a given. 

I hope the counselling helps your family through this difficult time, especially your daughter.

Thank you for the suggestion I will definitely consider it.

Take care xoxo

I believe you're brave Esther, of course you won't  think that after what you be been through. You saw your dad suffer and now you're bravely looking after your mum. You've got such courage. 

Take care sweetie xxxxxx

It’s been nearly a week now. I’m sat here counting down the hours. Thinking what was happening this time last week. Thinking this time last week my Dad was still alive. Today was a bad day I didn’t cope well. I’m finding mornings the hardest. Waking up and it hits me all over again. I struggle to get up. I thought after nearly a week things would get better, I’d cope better but it just feels like things are getting worse. It’s my birthday next week and all I want is my Dad back. Just to hug him and tell him how much I love him. I’m so lost without him