My name is Emily and earlier in the summer my dad passed away. He was diagnosed with progressive MS about 5 years ago, and that had been impacting him more so than we thought. My parents got divorced when I was 11 so I had split time with both mum and dad, so when he got worse I kind of became his carer (cleaning, cooking etc).
Anyway, as time passed he got worse and worse but still manageable, until the beginning of 2018, when he rapidly lost weight and was visibly deteriorating. This was unusual for ms as weight loss isn't usually a symptom especially to this extent. I came home one day to find him in a state of delusion and dehydration, and called an ambulance. He was in hospital for 2 weeks ish where many checks were done including endoscopys then another 2 weeks in intermediate care. This was all during my GCSEs but that couldn't be helped. He got sent home, but a month or so later my mum told us hed passed away.
I didn't understand, but it turns out he had pancreatic cancer and had done for roughly a year. How did this go unnoticed whilst in hospital?? I was shocked as cancer seems like something people deal with over a time period , I did not know it could be so sudden and missed by professionals. I'm only 16 and I still feel like reality hasn't kicked in yet, and I'm worried it's all building up emotionally inside.
I'm writing on here because I find it difficult to open up and I want to know if anyone else has had a similar experience and how do you cope with losing a parent so young? I really miss him and I'm worried im pushing all of my feelings aside.
Thanks , Emily
