Hi AliC,

I'm so very sorry for your loss, my mum died on the 26 Sept, I understand some of how you must be feeling, it is just awful. I hope you have family around, that you can support each other, that is where I found that I could speak about how I was feeling and they would understand.....as do people on this forum.

I struggled with panic attacks at first and had terrible trouble sleeping, first and last thoughts were of mum and pretty much all my days were filled with just thinking about her. I went to my GP for help but didn't take the Diazepam she prescribed, instead took Lavender tablets which helped a little with the anxiety. The guilt and regret I feel/felt is pretty awful, you go through the what if's.

I don't want to presume to tell you how you should feel, your grief is individual with no right or wrong ways to act or feel, all is normal.

It does get easier as the time passes, I understand that I won't ever get over losing my mum, part of me is broken but I know I will get to the stage where I can accept it and remember the happier times.

I'm sending you best wishes and hope that your journey will become easier in time, again, so sorry for your loss.

Take care

x

Hi Alice, 

I'm really sorry for your loss. I actually don't have any words of support.. I just wanted to let you know that I am going through the same pain. My dad left us 2 weeks ago and since then I have succumbed to an emotional rollercoaster of depression, denial and anger. The part that makes me most sad is when I think about him and his future being so abruptly stopped. He was 58 and had been fighting cancer for 16 months... it never got too bad until his last weeks when complications kept arising and he lost so much weight and could not get out of bed. I never ever ever thought we would loose him though. He actually died from a heart attack... And 2 weeks on, I still don't know what to think and how to feel. I just cannot bring myself to believe what has happened. When I stop and think about him, and the last days I spent with him, my entire body aches. And after a break down, my brain just shuts all those thoughts out, and thinks "this can just not be possible", and then I keep on pretending that it has not happened. 

Anyway I'm sorry if this message isn't giving you much comfort, I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. If you ever want to talk about it let me know. From one lost and angry soul to another.  

Hi

I lost my dad this morning I feel like I'm going mad.

We are so sorry for your loss Scared1961. It must all be so difficult for you at the moment and I hope you will find some support here from others like AliC who have also recently lost a parent to cancer. My thoughts are with you all on this thread who have lost a loved one to cancer recently.

We are all here anytime you need to reach out and talk. 

Best wishes,

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator